October 5, 2011 - AWKWARD

So today was eventful. Up until today though, nothing has really happened. I've been hanging out with Brian as much as possible. I went to their choir concert last night (Tuesday). That was a ton of fun. Today, I went back to my mom's house for the first time since I'd moved. I had to get all my other clothes. That was awkward and I had to sign a paper saying I no longer wanted to be recognized as one of Jehovah's Witnesses so they could disfellowship me. Then I went and got my license. I'm pleasantly suprised with my picture! After helping me move (and thank you so much again for doing that!), Roni and I went to the mall. We walked around all-girl stores and people recognized that I obviously wasn't straight. They treated me no differently at all. This has been a reoccuring theme. I expected way more harrassment that I just haven't got. We went to dinner with Rachel Little for her birthday dinner. This was the first time during break I'd been around multiple people from my school at once and, once again, I was not treated differently at all. Granted, it was all girls and me. I'm interested to see how I'm treated around guys who know me. Roni and I went back to the mall after dinner and ran into an old... friend of mine. He walked all the way from accross the store to help me (he worked there). Roni got the vibe from me and acted like my girlfriend. I don't have any interest in that person anymore because I feel binded to somebody else. :) Any new news will be on here the day it happens!

October 2, 2011 - Bye Bye Religion

This was the most shocking day of the whole thing so far. I am still in disbelief. It started by all of my Jehovah's Witness "friends" saying awful things to me over the internet. Then I had to go to the Kingdom Hall (church). I talked to one of the elders and explained everything. He was cool a bout it, but knew that I'd have to be disfellowshipped. If you want to know what that is, ask me. It's too complicated to talk about on here. Basically, no witnesses (no matter where they live) are allowed to talk to me. Then I got home and got the most shocking news of my life: my mom and step-dad had given up and told me I could move with my dad. I was so stunned, I didn't know how to respond. I had finally gotten what I've been fighting for this whole time. Now I can play sports, be in musicals, plays, and everything else I want to do! Maybe I'll dye my hair and get my ear pierced just because I can. HAHA! So now I'm here, I'm no longer being judged, and I can live life to the fullest how I want to! This is the start of a new chapter. Time to turn the page!

October 1, 2011 - Halloween Month!

On the way home from school (I was walking) somebody driving by yelled out their car, "Faggot!" It was the first negative reaction I'd had. If you said it and you're reading this, I heard you. IDGAF. =) Then Sam and Vicky saw me and gave me a ride home. You guys save the day again. I also told my dad and step-mom today. They were both extremely supportive. He said he was stunned by the balls it took to tell everyone while I was still in High School. She said, "I knew it." I put my new "Interested In" status on Facebook tonight. I'm also telling more people. Any positive and negative reaction from tonight will be put on the blog tomorrow!

September 30, 2011 - First Day

Sam already knew back in freshman year. I decided to come out about being bisexual to a select few people today in Concert Choir. Balding was first. He had a very positive response and said we were still best friends and he'd support me. It was a very encouraging way to start a nerve-wrecking day. At lunch, I told Lexy, Gabby, and Tyler. All three totally backed me up and Lexy gave me the biggest hug I've had in a long time. =) The most challenging person to tell was Ryan. I was leary because of his strong religious views. I was pleasantly suprised to hear him say it was fine and he'd "look past it". Although he may look at it as a fault, I can live with it. It was off my chest and we are still best friends. I'm doing this mostly for myself, but also to show other people what it's like to live this life. No negative reactions happened today, but I know they're coming. It'll spread like wildfire and by the time I get to school, school could be hell. Thanks for keeping it a secret for so long, Sam! You have NO IDEA how much it means to me. LOVE YOU! <3